Long time no write!!

Well its been a while, but I have been so busy.... There is a bit to report, haven't really been doing much exercise as I have been working part time and I moved house, both of which just took it our of me... Literally.

I have droppped to a size 16 (AUS) but I dont know what my weight is.

2 Weeks ago I saw the surgeon and had my first fill... He put in 3mls which Sue said is quite a bit, I am not really feeling very restricted though... Whatever that means, I can pretty much eat whatever I want although have been a bit scared to try red meat as yet... Definatly wouldn't be a steak but wouldn't mind some roast... Hmmmm roast!!

Cant wait for chrissy! My Mum is having a BBQ!

I went out for Dinner for the first time post surgery, last night!! We went to La Porchetta, just a group of us girls for our Bible Study break up!! I had a little bit of other peoples stuff, this included a tiny bit of chicken parma (hmmmmmm it was SO good) and half a slice of pizza... everyone else had pasta but had food with it that I NEVER eat, like mushrooms and avocado... Gross!!

It was a good experience and I need to say that "I didn't over-do it" YAY!! I ate slowly and a little bit and when I was satisfied I STOPPED!!

Really learning a lot about myself going through this experience!!

Anyway I am planning to go to the Gym tomorrow and weigh in, so I will post some more then!!

Bye for now!!

Week 5....

As I begin week 5 post surgery I have to admit it seems like I have had the band longer... Maybe this is due to the icky pre surgery shake diet? 

I am really struggling emotionally with a variety of issues, its like that analogy of the plate, You have 'stuff' on your plate and then there is something else added and then something else and then there is one BIG thing that just breaks the plate completely and everything 'falls off'...

I am getting loads of attention from the opposite sex and I thought I would be ecstatic about this but I'm not, I really don't feel like I have the energy for a man!! Argh I never thought I would say that.....

I am seeing the surgeon in 2 weeks for my first fill, I am really nervous about it as I really hate chucking and I am afraid there might be some icky PB's after the fill... I think I am still loosing although I have been a bit unwell this week so have not made it to the Gym, however I have been on a few BIG walks over the weekend. I mowed the lawn today (naughty) and subsequently passed out twice... I am off to the GP on Thursday as I have been having menstrual issues since the surgery, My regular GP says its stress but I don't know so I'm off for a second opinion... I think I'm low in iron... I feel run down and sluggish and really awful, I have no energy and am really emotional, as in just look at me and I'm a blubbering MESS!!

Argh there is just SO much going on at the moment and I would normally placate this mess with a big piece of chocolate cake but I cant even have a small mouthful.... I really don't regret the surgery but I'm feeling frustrated by the restrictive diet...

I went online last week and did some research into recipes for post banding and was pleased to find a book titled - "Knife, Fork and Band" which was written by a dietitian in conjunction with banded patients to create a book suitable for all stages post banding and are also suitable to serve up to the family!! So there is no need to make 2 meals... I can't wait for it to arrive!!

I went through my wardrobe this week also and was able to get out all my BIG clothes, It was very liberating and satisfying!! I also went to Target and was ecstatic that I could put on clothes from the normal range and did not have to go to the PLUS sized section... Also having many compliments helps you feel more motivated to keep at it...

So all in all a very up and down week...... I am just hoping and PRAYING that thing will start picking up in my personal life and I can start enjoying my new changing body!!

Update....

Soooooo, I know I only wrote here on Monday which is like 2 days ago but I must share.....

While I am still feeling crappy about the whole pureed diet crappy food, I have had some news to share for this week....

I have made it to 100kgs.... Yay for me..... I have not weighed this since my 5yo was born.... I am wearing a size 18 (AUS) very comfortably and in track pants and leggings am wearing a 16 (AUS)... So Double Yay!!

I have to admit as a single girl I am getting ALOT of male attention which is nice, flattering and unnerving.... I don't hate myself when I walk past the shop windows and check out my reflection.... I actually smile and say to myself - "Half way there"....

I am having some family problems at the moment which is making me quite depressed and I have noticed clearly what some of my old habits were in regards to 'Comfort Eating'. It has been really amazing to stop myself and go..... Oh My Gosh I'm not even hungry why am I thinking about food???

I have decided to JUMP out of my comfort zone and audition for the local theatre companies production for next year which will be Guys and Dolls..... I'm pretty excited!! I love singing and dancing.... When I reach my goal weight I am going to take up dancing again... I always wanted to learn Ballet.. A local dance school here teaches adult beginner Ballet....

And finally going so well I have been asked to sing at church as a back up singer for our Sunday morning service, this has been a desire of mine for quite a long time and its a privilege I will honour....

So a HUGE couple of days in my house....

Week 4 post surgery.....

So I popped off to the Gym today, for 2 reasons really, One to have a walk on the treaddie and secondly to have a weigh in.... 

And the weigh in went like this... (I really need to get my own scales so I can weigh in the morning) I have lost 2kgs this week... Not alot but still a loss so I have to be happy with this.... 

I have been experimenting with food... Making yummier recipes, that I can puree.... Hmmmmmm

Today I had my first pain after eating... I think this means I ate too fast, not sure, but it hurts like hell.... Does anyone know what I can do for this to ease the pain in my stomach.... I have not had a PB so it is just sitting there hurting......

I must admit I have been a little naughty and had a snack size bit of chocolate.... a few times..... I couldn't help it... I was craving sooooooo BAD..... Another reason for the trip to the gym today... a guilty workout!!

I have been feeling quite down lately, mostly about not being able to have cake, muffins, roast or anything I used to enjoy. At work we make home made saussage rolls and I smell them cooking and I really want one BAD but its not going to happen!! 

ITS FRUSTRATING - I have thought of making some baby ones with chicken mince and grated vegies and NO pastry and pureeing them, but somehow I just don't think it will be the same....

I have had some NSV (non scale victory) this week... Buying a top at Target to wear out and not having to go to the Plus sized section... Wearing Jeans I have not worn since my 5yo was a baby.... Having friends and family coment on how FANTASTIC Im looking..... Wearing clothes that have been a little small, buttoning up a cardigan, not having pants cutting into me and being able to wear socks without getting that cutting in effect around the top - you know what I mean there.... 

Anyway better go now... Thanks for reading and I will post again soon....

More of the Beginning......

*Sigh* Well another day over..... I finally got some measuring cups and am now measuring my food out... 1/2 cup serving of dinner, and behold.... I am FULL and still full after an hour....

Spoke with my Dietitian today who has suggested I put Milo in my milk and on my breakfast to keep me full for longer (extra protein or something) and so far today it has worked!! Yay!!

Realised today though I am not really drinking enough... Naughty Naughty..... I just get so focused on the Food intake that I forget I need to drink water also!!

Anyone have any tips to get me drinking more??

Anyway I'm off to get some exercise now....

The Beginning......

Well I was given the idea to blog by another person who went under the knife to beat the battle with obesity.... You know who you are..... Thanks.....

On October 11th 2010 I went under the knife and had a shiny new Lap band installed.... To say the surgery was a breeze would be a HUGE fib.... It was the most painful experience of my life to date... Yes worse than childbirth!!!

I awoke from the surgery with screams of "What have I done......." 

The first 2 weeks on a liquid diet seemed hard, however now I am onto a puree diet and in hindsight the liquids were easy.... Ice-cream, jelly, custard, yogurt etc.... Trying to find food that I can eat that can also be pureed and taste good are really ridiculous!! Challenging!! Frustrating!! Need I go on, you get the picture....

So I'm currently 2 1/2 weeks post surgery, I have currently lost 17kg and SHRUNK from a size 22 (AUS) to a Sexy size 18 (AUS) I have pulled out clothes I have not worn in 3 years... (glad I kept them and didn't chuck them) 

I had several health issues before undergoing the surgery, Fibromyalgia (FM), Diabetes, PCOS and Chronic Fatigue.... I am pleased to report that since the surgery have NOT had any major pain related to the FM and am off ALL strong painkillers (previously on several narcotics) however I am still having trouble with sleeping at night (which is a side effect of FM). I believe my Diabetes is cleared but do need to go in for a test!!